looking in...looking out...

I guess today's a day of blogs entries:) My mood has fluctuated from one end to the other and every where in between. No it's not PMS. Multiple people at work asked if I was doing ok cuz I apparently haven't looked my happy cheery self. There's a lot on my mind. All kindsa varied stuff; some of which goes together and others that are pretty independent.

One such independent thought that just crossed my mind is my ultimate dream to have an Indian dance and music school for kids. I absolutely luv kids and teaching them. And I would be incomplete without my dance and music. The ultimate combination - A classical Indian dance and music academy for kids! Some of my friends have been asking me to start right away, but I'm nervous. I don't know if I'm ready to go down that route as yet. I need to get back to a regular riyaaz routine. Then maybe. I've thought about going to the dance rooms in the rec and practicing my items, while choreographing others. Maybe once the actual semester starts I'll follow a routine, which would also include me waking up at 4/5am to warm up my voice. Now that's a whole other ordeal! Probably not happening.

I have a harmonium now, so I need to start practicing again. The Sai center gives me the outlet I crave both for music and teaching kids(not the arts though), but sometimes, it's just not enough. Last night when I sang to my heart's content and led a song, something tugged at my heart and made me think about this again. And even just sitting here wrapping up the work week, I'm dwelling on it. Every so often I've thought about just moving to India for a bit and training again in new styles and training to teach. But it's not really a practical thought considering where I'm at with life right now.

Dipti and I were talking the other night about the price we pay for this so called US independence. We lead this life where no one questions or stops us from doing anything. Yet, we've left a ton of resources and ties behind. Ties that could have made these dream a reality...


Side note: I'm gonna teach the Miss,Mrs & Teen India Arizona contestants their pageant opening number this weekend, so that's something to look forward to. Even though the rest of the pageant stresses me out, cuz it's a family run venture. My sister's annual project!